Yours Forever

Finally got myself a Miu Miu Bag!!

2010-06-14T18:09:00.004+08:00

Finally i bought my Miu Miu Bag.

loved the coffer lotsa... but after trying it at the boutique, realised that it is very heavy and does not suit me.. and realised that the bow bag look so much better on me that i decided to get it..

Its the latest season colour called Azzurro... its a dark turqoise blue.. loving it now... woohoo..

Here's how the bag looks like:

想念

2009-06-05T00:23:00.004+08:00

Finally I decided to meet up with Kaiyan's fren cum classmate, Candy, who is a financial advisor. She was instructed by him to help me manage with my financials in future. He actually asked her to contact me. For your info, Kaiyan has passed away, he was the one i wrote on my previous post.

After having dinner with Candy today, I'm feeling more guilty than before.... despite the fact that i did not visit him, he still care so much for me.. During his stay in SGH, he told Candy to call me when she can cos he was too weak to give me a call. He told her that I'm a girl with lotsa health problem, hope Candy can meet up with me some time in future to ensure that i have a medical insurance as he finally realised the significance of having a medical insurance. Without it, he would not have obtain $240,000 to cover his hospital bills.

After speaking to Candy, I realised how many things he have told Candy about me.. He told her that we were once very close frens. She told me that actually during his wake, she saw a few pics of me and him during the slideshow of pics played on his laptop ( which he specially designed it during the last few days b4 he passed away but i did not see it when i was at his wake).

I knew him in yr 2003 or 2004. We used to hang out with a bunch of friends for jamming sessions and studio recordings. then in 2005 feb i went to China, back in 2005 May but soon i was attached. Met him once again in 2006, then i disappeared again in end 06 or 2007 mid due to some reason (It may have been different if you have asked me earlier)

Just went to read his blog and realised the last time he mentioned abt me is in 2005 Jan b4 i went to China:

"Monday 10012005 Jan 10, '05 8:03 PM

It's a nice date 1001 hee~ reads the same both ways, and it happens to be Minmin's 23rd Birthday! Called her at around 6pm and so bad of her not to remember my voice nor my hp number haha~ Even mistook me for being Yichao! Wa liew! How can you be so heartless? But then again don't blame her also keke~ she's already attached, so it's normal that she gave her attention to Andrew more than me keke~ Best is that I'm only invited to their dinner gathering when I called haha~ I'm sure she's forgotten all about me long long time ago =p
1st day of school and it's relaxing but still there's a bit of sianz in it haha~ well~ I'm sure it's normal for everyone isn't it? keke~ Not speaking for those super talented in studies =p Envy those who can play whole day and get good grades without studying grrrrr!
Normal daily routine of sending Kaiying to school and fetching Mother back from her Chinese Literature classes at night. Best of today was being able to hear Xueli sing =D And yes girl~ have more confidence in yourself especially when singing on stage. Curb your stage fright and you'll soar real high given your talent and hardwork included. Your basics are good enough, now it's just nore of blending in your own feel and of course your own style. All the bestest for the audition on Tuesday keke~ Keep me updated of the results hee~"

I am sorry that i did not realised it till i met up with you again in 2006 and caused a regret within you till the day you passed away. Really felt guilty that you keep mentioning about me to Candy but yet i failed to appear in front of you till the day you passed away.

I will try to do my best for every performance and competitions in future, just for you.

Badly missed.

Shirley aka Xueli

Goodbye my fren!!

2009-05-28T16:37:00.006+08:00

One of my close fren, Kaiyan, passed away on 18 Jan 09 due to cancer.

He is the 2nd person who is close to me that passed away.

Remember last time i always bully him ask him bring me for supper whenever i feel like it.

Last time whenever he having school holidays in University, he will also send me to work in the morning.

Every year, during my birthday, he never fail to celebrate for me.( he promised to celebrate for me every year. this year i told him that he must survive the virus war within him, cos i will wait for him to celebrate my bday with me, but guess it will not happen anymore :( )

He was very supportive in anything i do. Eg:singing..

Here's a note that i wan to give him:

"Dear Kaiyan,

I'm sorry that i did not visit you throughout ur fight with ur illness.

But i do regret not doing so, i have so many things to tell you but did not get a chance to do so.

I'm sorry that i did not stand beside you to pull you through.

Every yr, i promise i will visit you at ur place.

Miss you lotsa
Xue Li (he always call me in my chinese name)"

Here's a pic for me and him, taken 4 yrs back:

Here's a picture of me that he snap shot ( long time ago pic as u can see from the phone that i am using:p)

The picture of me that he liked:

I quite sad that i could not find the picture that he took for me during my bday last year..

all the above pics was taken from his blog..

all recent pics cannot be found in his blog.. sigh.. sad..

Day 6 at Taipei (Last Day)

2008-12-28T04:28:00.011+08:00

Day 6 at Taipei (Last Day)

Since its the last day, basically we went to buy gifts for our frens.. hee hee... but cannot post up the pictures let you all see... when i go back u all will noe wat i bought for u all k.. haha

Since its the last day, my bf did not wan to go anywhere too far from our hotel as he need to pack his stuff.. so we went to this 三吉 shop which was famous for its grilled food. My bf likes grilled food so its like throughout this 6 days, he will go for grilled chicken thigh when he dunno what to have for meal.

Then we continued with our shopping for gifts... hee hee...

Then we decide to try Yoshinoya over here to see whats the difference between Taipei's and Singapore's... We realised that apart fromt he difference of the utensils used... the miso soup is very different also... its a pork miso soup... it has carrot, radish, pork meat and potato in it... taste better than the normal miso soup we usually have at Singapore's Yoshinoya.

This is the regualr size beef bowl..

and this is the extra large size beef bowl...

You may not be able to tell the difference from this 2 pics... but the extra large bowl is definitely taller and wider.. haha...

Took this picture of the 街头表演 from my hotel room... this girl's voice quite nice.. haha

The stay in the hotel is nice and the staff here are also very nice and friendly.. I just realised that i did not take any pictures of my hotel room... here it is... haha...

Phew!! finally finish blogging all 6 days at Taipei... will be flying to Taiwan later at 12noon... will continue blogging ony my stay at Hong Kong over there k...

Stay Tuned..

Day 5 at Taipei

2008-12-28T03:59:00.009+08:00

Day 5 at Taipei

On the fifth day, we went to try this famous curry pork cutlet omelette rice... i almost forgot to take pic of it so it looks half eaten.. heehee..paiseh

Afterwhich went to 五分铺 to see anything to buy at this wholesale market... but realised lotsa winter clothes hardly see anything that i can buy back to wear.. and the prices ain't that cheap as well... so well... spend time walking ard but went back empty handed...

Then after that met my Poly fren, Sky, who was from the same CCA, Song Composing Club. Its been like long time i never see him... but when i walk out from the railway station, he can still recognise me from far... not bad... means i have not changed much... lol... but maybe a bad thing also... means i never become slimmer or prettier... die...

He brought us to this restaurant..

He treat us the handmade noodles, fried pig intestines, shark meat cold dish, black sesame mua chee, 卤肉饭, fried oysters and asparagus salad... really sumptous meal... and again i forget to take pics... wth...my bf secretly foot the bill... so in the end we treat him instead cos my bf find that its been nice that he brought us to this place despite the fact that he is very busy... haha...

P.S.: Sky "妹妹", next time you come Singapore i bring you go eat then you treat us back k... hahaha... joking neh... must come find me k...

Day 4 at Taipei

2008-12-28T00:35:00.024+08:00

Day 4 at Taipei

Early in the morning, went to buy the famous mee sua for breakfast... the taste is shiok man...

I also bought Mister Donut which Singapore dun have... they gt very cute paperbag...

I realise an interesting thing, usually serviettes the staff will juz put into the paperbag, but this Mister Donut's serviettes are actually put into a packaging like this:

I bought the miniatures donuts... very nice looking and tasty...

Afterwhich, we head down to 忠孝敦化 station to SOGO departmental store to help my bf's sis buy Jill Stuart cosmetics.. she wanted the blush... and it looks like this:

So nice rite.... i was so tempted by it... and i also bought one of the blush >.< then in order to have tax refund on the items we bought, have to purchase up to an amount of NT3000... so we were short by NT400... then i ask the salesgirl to recommend one of the item.. so she recommended the lip balm which looks like this:

I like the cover of this lip balm lotsa... gt bling bling de... see... so nice..

Then out of curiousity, i saw this eye colour... very bling bling when apply on... so tempted... i bought the eye colour... >.<

Due to my bf's fren, Winston's request, i took pic with one of the salesgirl to show him how taiwanese girls look like... of cos this is the average looking one... the pretty one too busy serving other customers...

They say that 忠孝敦化 station is like Singapore's bugis or orchard... haha... so i took some pictures of the streets..

Then my bf found this restaurant recommended by those magazines..

This restaurant is situated in those small alley but the alley look so nice..

They even gt graniph store in this alley...

This shop looks nice as well..

We tried their chef recommendation... the red wine grilled chicken thigh look so so good... of cos it taste good too..

and also the crispy white wine chicken in sweet and spicy sauce..

Then on the way back to hotel, i found this candy shop and sells interesting packaging for their marshmellow... here's how it looks like... haha...

Day 3 at Taipei

2008-12-27T22:42:00.022+08:00

Day 3 at Taipei

Third day at Taipei... we went to Taipei 101... hee hee.. the shops there are all damn ex man... can only see cannot buy de... there gt brands like Agnes B, Miu Miu, Cartier etc... we went to the foodcourt to try korean food cos we saw lotsa ppl trying it and it smells damn good.. show u guys some pictures of Taipei 101 building and the streets ard the building:

Here's the interior of Taipei 101 building:

Here's the foodcourt that we tried the korean grilled cum steamboat:

As they are many ppl, we gotta take the queue number and their queue number is this:

Yes its a queue number not a controller... when there is available seats, the "queue number" will vibrate and light up as well.. so cool rite... haha...

Here's the food:

Here's the menu:

Then i saw a very expensive brand Christmas Tree:

And another normal christmas tree:

There are also lotsa 街头表演 ard that street, around New York New York Shopping centre and Shin Kong Mitsukoshi(新光三越) shopping centre..

Since its 24 dec, we went to a club called "luxy" for countdown party..

The girls all dressed quite skimpy, all make up with those very fake fake lashes... haha... jappy curl blonde hairstyle... haha... but of cos they gt very good figure... that night the dj was stanley 黄立行 and MC hotdog... the music was good(all english de... dun need worry too chee na k).. but only bad pt was that it was too crowded... so me and my bf went off early for our 麻辣火锅... hee hee..

Here's the pics of the steamboat:

its a buffet kinda steamboat buffet... i realised that their buffet gt time limit one... its 2hrs.... let you guys see the receipt that they wrote for the time limit:

My bf eat till sweat siah... cos very the spicy siah...

I like the oysters lotsa... cos very the big as compared to singapore de..

Day 2 at Taipei

2008-12-27T21:43:00.017+08:00

Day 2 at Taipei

Ok finally blogging on day 2..

Day 2, we went to buy the taiwanese version Ez-link card, which was called the "悠游卡", it looks like this:

I realised that the train route looks similar to Singapore one... gt green, red, blue and brown line.. it is very accessible and per trip cost ard NT15-40... depending on the distance... below are some pictures of the train station which is known as 捷运:

Now i know why ppl in the train is so quiet... cos they were taught to do so... look at this notice in the train:

I realised also that no matter how packed is the train, this dark blue seats are always empty cos it is meant for the needy ppl like elders, pregnant woman and etc..

We took the train to 淡水 to walk ard and also try the local food over there... the scenery was quite nice... i dun think singapore got so high hills...lol

Me with the background scenery.. i know my pose a bit weird...lol... but bo bian the photographer is my bf.. he never tell me how to pose.. wahaha

Then we went to 士林 station... was looking for tat warner movie theatre.. but could not find it in the end... so only took pictures of the traffic in Taipei..

Oh ya in this pic, you see the students wearing their uniform.. think looks quite cool man... in their so called windbreaker...lol

Afterwhich we went to 士林夜市 at 剑潭 station.. tat 炸鸡排 is really damn huge... then they gave me the chicken, its quite heavy man... lol.. we also tried the 棺材板... it is actually a huge loaf of bread like those toast box kinda... they actually open it to stuff the shredded chicken in and added some starchy sauce in it... taste quite good also... cos they fried the bread b4 adding the ingredients... SO SO SORRY that there are no pictures... cos i was busy eating... forgot to take pictures of it.. >.<

There are also dishes like 大肠包小肠,大包包小包 and 青蛙下蛋... some interesting names.. but very unhealthy food...lol... I realised Taiwan have lotsa deep fried food which my bf likes a lot... think i like the 起司猪排 best... its also deep fried.. but when u bite on it, there is ham in the middle followed by melt cheese followed by pork meat then dough flour... shiok man... but of cos... not too much of it man.. very sinful... my bf keep eating tat roadside stall's grilled chicken thigh... he damn ironical... when he 1st reach taiwan, i told him i wan to eat roadside stalls... he dun allow.. he say damn unhygenic... after lotsa persuasion.. he finally decide to try and now keep eating the roadside stalls' food... -_-"

Day 1 at Taipei

2008-12-23T20:43:00.015+08:00

Day 1 at Taipei

Yup i am at Taipei now... hee hee.. here gt free connection so i decide to blog daily if i can...

My flight was at 805am depart from Singapore to Hong kong then from Hong Kong transit to Taipei.

We check in airport quite early and i discovered this resting area at Singapore Changi Airport... Now i know why Singapore previously won the No. 1 Airport in the world.

Take a look at the resting area:

see.. they offer those sleeping kinda chairs for passengers to rest lo.. they even put up a sign to say paasengers can request for a blanket at the counter if they want o.0

They even have tv for you to watch show.. haha...

This is the plane that i took from Singapore to Hong Kong for transit to Taipei

Me and my bf look shag cos we gotta woke up at 530am.. haha

i reached Hong Kong at 1225pm then gotta go to the departure hall immediately to catch the flight from Hong Kong to Taipei.

Here's the waiting area:

Here's some pics when the plane is in the air from Hong Kong to Taipei.. love the clouds... make me think of carebears.. haha

When we finally reach Taipei Taoyuan Airport, we were looking for freego bus but bloody hell cannot find lo we ask the ppl ard, they say it costs NT2400!!! they cheat me lo... then say wat take cab cost NT1400.. so bo bian we took cab and i think they cheat my money.. then my bf la.. keep on saying faster... sigh... so waste lotsa money lo...

Then once we check in hotel, we were famished... so went for food... my bf was looking for grilled food... we saw a restaurant stating griled food but when we went up to order then we realised they served baked rice and baked pasta... and not GRILLED FOOD!!!!!

But the interior design was nice.. show u guys the pictures of the restaurant..

Then we walk ard Xi Men Ting

Then we saw a blood donation van at a corner at night... they so on siah... lol

Then we went to NET and tried one of the caps there... kinda winter

My bf asking me to take a side view pic of him to see how the jacket looks like..

Me trying the military cap..

Then after shopping at NET, we saw a very big building of Partyworld

They gt an interesting green man light when the traffic light turns red. This green man actually walks during 60-20s countdown, when its at remaining of 20s countdown, the green man will start flashing and the green man will start running to indicate to ppl crossing the road that there is only less than 20s left.

Afterwhich we went for our roadside food makan... its fantastic siah.. haha

Then we drank red dates longan drink... very nice.. then i realised got sylvia's fav idol printed on the cup... so decide to post these pics..lol

Afterwhich went back to hotel to watch tv.. haha then i realised that 娱乐百分百 is actually an hour or so prog... and the artiste gets to sing like 4 to 5 complete songs... but in singapore they actually cut so many parts only like 1 or 2 songs played and the songs are not even complete -_-"

haha.. thats wat i did on the very 1st day... more updates coming.. hee

Clubbing with bf

2008-12-17T21:00:00.006+08:00

Went clubbing previously with my bf and his sis.. cos his sis gt tixs from her company for free drinking session at 5 clubs for free... its like per ticket u get a club waiver charge and free 2 drinks...

His sis gt 48 tickets... so she got her frens along... so in total 10 of us went to 5 different clubs... try different music and drinks.. haha.. so fun man... drink and drink and drink... here's pictures of me and my bf.. haha...

me and him at Zirca(the music sucks there...kinda fusion music and lotsa les)

That's me and him at Lunar

Prayer!

2008-12-01T11:55:00.002+08:00

PRAYER FOR MYSELF

I am on study leave from last Thursday till tomorrow. Tomorrow is my exam but i still got 1 chapter haven finish... I MUST FINISH TODAY!!

Recently went to see my Gynae.. GD NEWS!! NO Cyst found and everything is gd!!

However, these few days have no appetite again... i bought a lot of junk food so that i can study and eat together but it seems tat i have no appetite..sigh.. too stress again??

I very worried that anything will happen to me again b4 i go for my Holidays on 22 Dec..

I pray that everything will run smoothly and i will be able to go overseas with my bf for the very 1st time... last year i ruin it hopefully this time everything will be fine!!!

Bless me man!!

Tiring week!!

2008-11-25T17:41:00.004+08:00

TIRING WEEK!!!

This whole week is going to kill me man... i am on study leave from Thurs, 27 Nov to Tues, 2 Dec cos my exam is on 2 DEC!!!! DIE!!!! I haven even finish studying!! sigh... AND due to the fact that i will need to go on study leave on this coming Thurs, i have to finish all my outstanding matters... clear all so that when i come back juz need to stay in track with the stuff then i can go on my holiday from 22 Dec to 1 Jan 09.. hee hee..

But in order for me to enjoy all my holidays and study leave and exam leave, yesterday i worked till 8plus then go home then today report to work at 630am!!! Thats my 1st time for this job.. now feeling really tired and hope 6pm come soon so that i can go home and sleep.. oh ya.. due to overloading work and stress, my skin started to fail again... they're peeling again... think i never sleep well, never eat well, never take care of my body, overstressed... AND IT CAME BACK!!! sigh....

Ok show u guys a pic of me and some of my colleagues during last sat's colleague's wedding... (i look kinda weird, think the fake lashes too dramatic for me man) -__-!!

Food Poisoning o.0??

2008-11-22T12:54:00.003+08:00

Food Poisoning o.0??

Yeap i kenna food poisoning!!!! on Friday, 21 Nov 08!!!

Yeap. It's a friday, meaning to say I have lesson on Fri... gotta sing 杨丞琳's 习惯. Yeap its a nice song man.. i like the melody and the lyrics lotsa.. But did not do well ytd, kinda hard to sing when i have to control pitching, sing with feel, preventing myself from vomiting and prevent my tummy from having too much movements if not i have to rush to toilet man... haha..

Oh ya previously i went to 新加坡金曲奖. Initially wanted to bring qh or by de but they not free T_T so in the end, i brought alan with me for it. 刘力扬's voice damn powerful man!!! her live is even better than Yoga Lin. I was totally amazed!! haha..

new dress

2008-11-13T14:59:00.006+08:00

NEW DRESS AND NEW SONG

Yesh!! i finally submitted the song to Angel for her FM88.3 campus reporter song.. Hopefully they find it ok... *pray*

Today on MC cos kinda sick... need to rest at home.. but staying at home make me finish the song in less than an hr... haha... so happy.. lol..

Let me introduce my latest collection:

Nice??? Bought it at mds.. hee hee.. going to wear it for my colleague's wedding... love it lotsa.. but i realised the website indicates that it can fit sizes from UK6-12 but i think its impossible.. cos i am a size6-8 person, the dress fits juz nice.. i think ppl who is size 12 cannot fit at all lo..

So Shiok.. now slacking at home with my doggy sleeping on my lap.. haha

IRRITATED

2008-11-11T15:33:00.003+08:00

I AM VERY IRRITATED(PLS DUN READ IT, FOR ME TO FLARE MY TEMPER AND STRESS ONLY)

CAN YOU ALL JUZ STOP BEING SO IRRITATING!!!

STOP DOUBTING WAT I SAID

IF YOU ALL DOUBT WAT I SAID PLEASE DUN LET ME NOE THAT YOU ALL DUN TRUST ME

ITS VERY IRRITATING WHEN I DISCOVER LOOPHOLES IN IT

WANT TO HAVE DOUBTS IN ME AND DUN TRUST ME,

MY ADVICE TO YOU IS: PLEASE DO IT IN A MORE PROFESSIONAL MANNER

Lunch time!!

2008-11-11T12:25:00.002+08:00

Its lunch time now but i'm still busy working. Finally got some time so decide to blog..

Sigh think i am either falling sick or too stress.. Have not been eating much for this 2 weeks. Last fri, was too stress, had nissin cup noodles for lunch but ate less than 5 mouthful, i threw it away.. find it disgusting.. then took 1 slice of cake, never finish also, find the cream disgusting.. went to drink green tea.. also dun feel good.. feel like vomiting.. But in the end, never la.. haha.. then went for dinner with frens also dun feel like eating.. eat le also feel so sian.. dun feel like eating..

Yesterday only had 1 meal throughout the day, only has curry chicken and 3 slices of bread which my mum prepared for me.. After lunch ard 3pm, feel disgusted again.. think indigestion or wat.. then ytd reached home early, decide to buy dinner.. bought tat mac spicy double up kinda.. the meat is totally digusting... its not thigh meat anymore.. taste so dry like nuggets.. omg... its horrible.. AND I PAID $7.95 FOR IT... CHEAT MY MONEY!!!! and once again, i eat halfway, throw away again.. sigh.. i am wasting so much food... i really feel like eating but when i really start eating i juz dun like it..

Now lunchtime i am supposed to eat, but i am not eating again.. no appetite.. i am hungry now.. but i really dunno what to eat.. buy le.. later throw away again.. sigh.. but maybe good also.. take this chance to slim down more.. haha...

Ytd went to have a hair cut to trim my hair.. it turns out... HORRIBLE... Argh!!! Can somebody just buy me a wig to wear???

Change of display Pic...

2008-11-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

Hee hee... finally got the pic from laoshi... so far this pic is my fav pic... kinda like the pose... but i think my expression not very nice... the eyes too big le.. very weird... haha... but nevertheless, i like this pic lotsa..

Looks stylo mylo siah.. haha

我的故事

2008-11-05T18:01:00.000+08:00

Juz found this article in my thumbdrive. I forgot when did i wrote this. Nevertheless, find it quite meaningful about my own life, decided to post it here:)

我的故事其实蛮简单的，一个单纯的故事。

在我小时候，父母亲就常常会去租一些卡拉ok录相带回家，在家里k歌。听着听着就觉得很好奇，为什么他们可以一整晚唱个不停都不会累？

在小学的时候，我的父母亲工作忙碌，舅舅就会常常安排大家聚在一起k歌，希望拉进大家的感情。
当时我就觉得很好奇，为什么唱歌能够让大家这么开心？
我就觉得歌手非常厉害，他们能够让大家在她的歌声的影响下，开开心心的唱歌，他们也可以把一首悲伤的情歌，唱得大家非常难过。

我就开始有这一个梦想，我想当一名歌手，希望能够通过我的歌声带给大家快乐，希望大家听我唱歌的时候都会很陶醉，希望能够帮他们解压。

在中学的时候，我记得有一场非常大型的歌唱活动在招生，我就拿了两份表格，一份给我自己，另一份给我的姐姐。当时我们都通过了试音，但是妈妈只让姐姐学唱歌，当时的我非常难过，为什么会那么不公平？明明是我要报名参加的，为什么结果却只让姐姐学？后来，姐姐学着学着，开始有了成果，音乐学校派她出国去参加一个音乐交流会，后来陆陆续续也有很多活动。我却只能眼睁睁的看着姐姐非常成功地做她喜欢做的事情，而我也只能继续很用功的念书，希望有一天妈妈可以让我学唱歌。

到了理工学院的日子，妈妈还是不肯让我学唱歌，她说如果要学，要我自己去外头打工赚钱，自己去负担歌唱学费。后来在朋友的介绍下，找到了一份工作，可是当时我的薪水更本不够让我到音乐学校学唱歌，因为学费很昂贵。后来发现学校有很多课外活动，我就从朋友那儿得知有一个课外活动和唱歌有关。我就参加了“创作坊”。在那里有许多热爱音乐的朋友们，有一些会作词，有一些会作曲，而我和一些朋友就负责唱他们的作品。在那里也学会了创作自己的歌曲，后来也在学校发表自己的创作，当时我就觉得非常高兴，我的梦想终于有一小小的进展。

后来在一个创作比赛里认识了一名歌唱老师，当时她是在音乐学校里教唱歌的，后来得知原来她自己在家里也有召学生，教唱歌。我就开始和她学唱歌了。当时非常的开心，可是因为是在一对一的情况下学习的，所以不会觉得有什么压力。我后来也参加了许多比赛，通过其中一场比赛，有一所音乐学校在招生，我就去那里学唱歌。

在学习中，从老师的口中知道了许多事情，原来要当一名歌手不容易。在学习的时候，有许多朋友和我同班，慢慢的发现原来每个人都有私心，并不是我想象中的简单。当时觉得很难过，为什么一个唱歌的班上会有那么多纠纷。唱歌不是一个很简单的事情吗？只要把歌唱好不就好了吗？当时在学习的过程也让我了解了很多，原来当一名歌手的条件不仅仅是把歌唱好那么简单。当然我现在已在社会工作，我第一份工作非常忙碌，为了唱歌，常常不够钱吃饭，有时候一天只能吃一餐，常常都熬夜，隔天继续上班，有时因为前晚练歌或者上课，每次都昏昏沉沉的上班，但是还好都没被老板看穿。可是却常常被妈妈骂，因为会很迟才回家，所以每次都会用工作当借口。

后来也换工作，因为我觉得那一份工作快让我喘不过气了，自己的体格越来越差。这份新工作却只待了三个月，因为达不到他们的要求。我那时在民歌餐厅驻唱，可是也被取代了。那时感到非常失落，为什么会变成这样子？

后来也想了很多，衡量一下，为一个梦想这样的拼，会有结果吗？当时做什么事都不顺利，还好很快地找到另外一份工作，又开始继续为梦想打拼，为生活打拼。却在这个时候发现在我周围，竟然会有那么多狡猾的人，有一些人开始取笑我的弱点，我这么的相信他们都是错的吗？在音乐的道路上真的是那么的艰难吗？在这期间我开始领悟，原来在朝着自己的梦想的途中真的只能相信自己，不能太轻易相信别人。要继续追求自己的梦想就不能轻易被任何事情难倒，要学会独立。虽然离我的梦想还有一段距离，可是通过这么多的考验，我相信只要继续努力，总有一天，一定会实现。

难以形容的话

2008-11-05T10:45:00.000+08:00

I have decided to blog in chinese more often from the next post onwards. Think its easier to write wat have i been doing these days without too much details that i does not wan ppl to know.. haha... *sounds confusing ya* (in doubt, can always ask me yea）haha.

Recently, there is changes in my job scope at work.. i will be handling more closing of accounts.. sounds fun but i think i'm getting a lil stress up with coping of it.. Hope i will be able to cope with it smoothly and hopefully PAY INCREMENT!!!! haha..

Went to the dental for my braces during last week.. GD NEWS: MY TEETH HAS STRAIGHTEN!!! juz gotta do some alignment now then it will be nice.. hee.. yeah yeah pretty pretty me coming soon... haha

Past 2 weeks have been meeting the same bunch of frens, been fun going out with them... especially meeting my 2 long lost frens aka disappear for long time frens.. nice chatting, gossiping abt lotsa things...

Later going out again to do some stuff that need to be done tonight.. hopefully will have lotsa inspiration later to accomplish the task given.

Sigh... ytd gt lesson at fm... me sucks at the song which laoshi specially choose for us which he find that will suit our vocal best and is within our range.. Sigh.. think i never practise hard enough and detailed enough... hope this sat will sound better at it... I sucks at lotsa control and feel kinda songs... hate it man..

GoodBye Nicole Laoshi!!

2008-09-07T02:41:00.000+08:00

Today i just received a message that Nicole Laoshi has passed away.. I was so shocked so i called Nicole Laoshi to double confirm. Then her daughter picked up the call.. She passed away this afternoon, 6 September 2008.

I went down to her wake immediately with Jinxiang. When i 1st saw her in the coffin, it was like i could not believe tats her in it. She lost so much weight... Her neck is so skinny.. Cannot believe that someone who is carrying a bright smile wherever she goes, suddenly stop smiling, suddenly lying there..

She was my 1st vocal teacher, she was the one who taught me what was singing about, what was harmonising about, what was song composition about, why jogging is essential for all singers, how to project my voice and everything..

Remember that when i go to her hse for lesson every week, she will ask if i had my lunch/dinner, will recommend me lotsa of different skincare products, will ask me go jogging with her, will ask me go learn dancing with her and etc...

Everytime lesson end, she will drive me to the train station. She will give me a bottle of chinese medicine which is good for throat. Ask me eat it everyday so that it will protect the throat so that next time even if i keep on singing for few hours, my voice will not change.

Juz now went to her wake, saw all the photos she have taken b4, with artistes, with her daughter, pics of her when she was young, then see her in the coffin, felt so sad juz now that i cried... sigh.. its like, not long ago, i met her at spop event, she ask if i still got keep on singing or not, i told her yup now learning at FM cos wanna learn how to perform, she say next time free and in doubt of anything about singing can always look for her and ask for advices without any charges.. I even thought after learning from FM le, will go back to learn from her.. But now she's gone, there is no way to do so anymore..

Jinxiang even say that when he saw her in the coffin, how he wish she will suddenly open her eyes to look at us again, to talk to us again, to teach us again..

But i am glad that she fulfilled her dream, she released her own EP this year. Finally she gt her own album. The only regret i think she have is that she could not be able to see her daughter to grow up, be a professional singer to fulfil the dream she has for her daughter.

Juz now Carmen was looking at Nicole laoshi with really sad emotions but she tried to stay strong, hold back her tears and told us that her mummy is really very pretty. We went to the tables to sit down for a while, but Carmen say she want to stay there looking at her mummy for a while more, then she asked if we got anything to tell her, we told her we have told Nicole laoshi in our hearts.

Thats wat i told her:" Nicole Laoshi, Thanks so much for teaching me so many stuff, do rest in peace, i believe one day in heaven u will see Carmen singing gracefully and proudly at various countries for you. I will remember in my heart all that u have taught me and will use it correctly using the notes that u have given me, the songs u have given me to learn i will sing it with all the techniques u have taught me, You have been a really great teacher and am happy that u have fulfilled ur dream in releasing ur own album in your life."

Congrats to my dearest sis!!!

2008-07-17T20:39:00.000+08:00

Congrats to my sis who got married last sunday,13 July 08. We knew each other since Sec 1 till now... time flies... seems like yesterday we were 13, when we just got to know each other.. Wow!!! it seems that you are the 1st to get marry!!! hee hee.. really happy for you Deborah!!

I was one of her jie meis for wedding as well as emcee for her wedding!!

Below is one of the picture taken, all 6 jie meis!!

Her wedding was held at Fullerton Hotel, the service was really good there.. beside giving the couple room, they also provided an extra room for us to rest as well.. so cool rite.. haha...

I did the emcee for the chinese part of course!! and the other guy was her husband's fren who wasn't straight... Farah was disappointed when she heard that he is not straight.. lol... she find it such a waste.. haha... that guy is an air steward.. haha.. so u can imagine how many air steward may not be straight.. haha

The wedding was a afternoon wedding lunch... 1st time attending a lunch wedding.. but we were all so tired after the wedding.. cos we were helping stuff here and there, we were the receptionist as well as making sure all the guests reach, arrange and make sure the JP arrives on time while i was getting ready for the speech as well as trying to keep the crowd entertained... lol...

All of us literally fainted when we reach home on sunday.. haha.. was really tiring man.. and i realised the bride is the most relaxed... cos all she need to do on that day is to change her oufits, smile, let makeup artiste do their job and do all the march-ins plus speech... think the most busy and tiring person will be the bridegroom..

Your Personality Type: The Groundbreaking Thinker

2008-06-08T15:00:00.001+08:00

Your Personality Type: The Groundbreaking Thinker

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Saw this personality test from Wendy's blog and tried this personality test

here's my result:

Groundbreaking Thinker (GT)

The groundbreaking thinker is a charming, enthusiastic person. He really bubbles over with energy and likes to take centre stage. He loves variety both professionally and privately. The groundbreaking thinker tackles changes consistently with his optimism and firm belief in his own abilities; he is always on the look-out for improvement possibilities. His excellent communication skills are of great advantage to him here. He approaches the world with curiosity and openness and masters new situations with a great deal of talent for improvising and with resourcefulness. His spare time is taken up with a large number of hobbies; most groundbreaking thinkers like to travel in order to gather as many different impressions as possible. This personality type is unbeatable at discovering new possibilities.

In his work, the groundbreaking thinker highly rates challenges and diversified tasks. He cannot stand routine and too detailed work. He loves to astound others with bold ideas for an original, new project and then leave it up to the others to implement them. Hierarchies, rules and regulations arouse his opposition and he loves outsmarting the system. It is vital to him that he enjoys his work; if this is the case, he quickly becomes a pure workaholic. His creativity best takes effect when he works independently; but he is very good at motivating others and infecting them with his optimistic nature. Conceptual or advisory activities appeal especially to the groundbreaking thinker. It can happen that some people feel somewhat duped by his flexible, spontaneous nature.

His sociability and enterprise ensure that the groundbreaking thinker always has a large circle of friends and acquaintances in which activity plays an important role. As he is mostly in a good mood, he is a popular and very welcome guest. Grumbling and peevishness are unknown to him. However, he does tend to be a little erratic and unstable when it comes to obligations and this makes him appear to be unreliable to some. He is very critical and demanding when it comes to picking a partner because he looks for the ideal relationship and has a very concrete picture of the ideal relationship. Mutual aims in life are very important to him. He does not like compromising and would rather remain alone. For the partner, it is often a challenge to have a long-term relationship with an groundbreaking thinker. The groundbreaking thinker needs a lot of space and diversity or otherwise becomes bored and feels cramped. Types who are rather more traditionalistic often have problems with the willingness of the groundbreaking thinker to take risks and his often crazy, spontaneous actions. However, if one can summon up sufficient flexibility and tolerance for him, one will never be bored in his presence and will always have a loyal and faithful partner in him.

Do try it if you feel bored.. haha

Update Update!! GSS very tempting!!!

2008-06-02T22:07:00.001+08:00

Woohoo, Great Singapore Sales (GSS) is here!!!! Its really tempting walking along Bugis and Orchard, u will find incredible discounts here and there.. all range from 40% - 70% for stores like Dorothy Perkins, Topshop, Local Designer Shops, Diva accessories and etc..

I recently bought a Office Ladies (OL) shirt from Dorothy Perkins at only $19, 2 dresses from some local designer shop at $24 and $34.

Last week my colleague went to Japan for finance meeting, but she asked me if i got anything to buy there... the 1st thing that came to my mind is... Majolica Majorca!!!!

Hee, so i printed the product list online and highlighted the stuff that i wanted. She bought it for me and bring it to office today.. So happy!!! Haha... show u all a pic of my collection.. haha

a lot right?? hee hee but quite cheap.. only cost JPY17,912 which is ard S$230. in Singapore, you can never find this price man... haha

Now a bit stress over my studioworks lesson... cos i made a stupid decision... i choose the wrong song to sing... shit man... i choose sun yan zi's ni guang to sing... then last sat was my 1st attempt singing it... laoshi recorded for me for 3 hrs then end of lesson, usually he will play and let us listen but he never play my song.. i ask him whether can listen or not he ask me go home practise harder.. he say i never practise hard enough... means my recording must be damn screwed up and damn buang... argh... stupid me... this coming wed i gotta sing this song again.. die die die....

Long Time never update!!!

2008-05-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

ITs been a long time since the last time i updated the blog... Think not so many ppl read le since ages no updates.. haha..

Well, hmm last year in Dec, i undergone a major operation for removal of 2 ovarian cysts of approx. 8cm each. so i stopped working and singing and performing for 1 mth plus...

Was really glad that during these days, my colleagues has been helping out with my work and has really been very nice to me despite the fact that i joined the firm for less than 3 mths.

As i was unable to sing and perform, they gotta find a replacement for my part for performance. Though was quite sad that i couldn't be able to be involve in any of it. But well, thats reality.

After i was able to go back to work and go back for singing lesson, seems that a lot of things has changed in the music school. Dun really like tat kinda of feeling. Felt that due to me disappearing for 1 mth plus for operation and resting, a lot of ppl dun remember me anymore. they just see you, say HI and walk off. Last time they will still mingle with you.Hmm.. maybe again... Tats Reality...

So well, tats when i decided to face the reality, stop dreaming about being a singer.. so i concentrated on my work, which turns out well, i gt salary increment, higher targeted bonus and etc... it seems at least it is something i can achieve with my own hands, unlike to be a singer, it takes lotsa PR, lotsa of in-born talents...

Updates!!!

2007-09-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

I know i have been saying that i will update my blog.. so sorry Wendy, i have not done so.. Recently got a lot of things to do, then some political issues about me.. sigh.. but i believe my frens (Deb, Yue er, Peiling, Liching n wendy) understand me the best and supports whatever i do.

Just a short post to inform u guys that i will update my blog asap when i can k.

Happy Birthday Shirley

2007-07-27T01:50:00.000+08:00

雪莉！生日快乐哦！

很快的我的生日又到了，虽然我还是带着非常开心和非常期待的心情去迎接我的生日，但是随着年龄的增长，因为工作繁忙，忙着追求自己的梦想而往往疏忽了许多朋友的我，也渐渐被它们遗忘了。

今天是我的生日，在半夜12点的时候，老师是唯一发简讯给我的人。在那时候我不知道应该开心还是觉得自己很可悲。开心的是......至少还有人记得我，也感到非常感动，因为老师有这么多学生，他每一位学生的生日都记得一清二楚。可悲的是......我一向来都有很多朋友，但是因为太忙与自己的梦想而忽略了他们，害得自己孤零零的一个人。

最近也发生了许多事情。在工作上不如意，在追求自己的梦想的道路上也遇到许多困难，弄得自己脾气暴躁，每夜睡得不安稳。

刚刚也在朋友的部落各看到自己的缺点，也许就如老师所说的：“你是师姐，要说服别人，首先要做个好榜样，别人才会心服口服。”

有时我也会觉得自己其实在音乐的道路，根本没有任何潜能。音准不好，音色不批别人好，许多师妹都唱得比我好。舞蹈我最差劲，说话也普普通通罢了。

是不是时候应该从这个梦中苏醒，别在任性，别在执著了？

New updates...

2006-12-30T16:01:00.000+08:00

It's been really long time i deserted this blog... never update my readers... decide to do so now as wendy was telling me yesterday tat i have not been updating my blog.. recently i have been shopping online.. buying clothes n accessories.. show u the clothes tat i haven juz received via online shopping..

This is the 1st top tat i saw n i like very much... its a red babydoll tube with floral prints on it.. nice?? hee..

This is the 2nd piece i got.. actually did not intend to get this pc, but the "supplier" told me this is nice so decide to get it.. hmm.. when i tried it.. ok la.. quite sweet but i find the lace on the dress looks like lingerie.. haha.. but overall.. sweet:)

This is the 3rd pc n also the last pc i bought on the same day.. bought it cos its BLUE... haha.. i find this dress looks a bit fat on me.. or is it i fat?? but i still like it.. cos its very diff me.. hardly wear this kind of dress..

This is one of the accessories i got.. the angel wings earrings!!! nice rite?? but my skin very dry.. gt skin flake on my neck.. so sad.. but the earrings is nice.. hee

This is the 2nd accessory tat i bought.. the chain is 18k gold long necklace.. its a mirror at the back.. cool rite.. hee hee.. nice nice..

I also gt a red motorcycle bag...damn nice also.. but i never took a pic of it.. next time upload k.. cos i also bought a white one.. but haven get it..

This is a limited edition cap from puma tat cannot be found in s'pore.. my fren's cap.. nice?? cool rite..

This yr christmas nothing special.. n i dun like the decorations on the street,, it sucks man.. the only thing that i like is the pink christmas tree at "The cathay"... its very pretty n unique.. cos i only saw white christmas tree n the original green ones but not pink ones..

On the 16th Dec i attended my poly classmate's wedding at meritus mandarin hotel.. saw a lot of my poly classmates.. felt like we are back to our poly life... nothing has changed.. took a pic with my best poly classmates.. liching n peiling.. miss them so much.. and we have been chatting the whole night.. its more like a gathering than a wedding.. haha

This pic was taken during my company's dinner n dance.. went to look for gine.. my hairstylist for a long time, to help mi style my hair n do the make up.. its turns out be gorgeous.. nice hairdo.. she actually used the straightner to curl my hair.. skilled rite..

These are some pics of me with very loud hairdo n makeup for shows.. was very fun cos u willl see the creative side of makeup.. really admire the makeup artistes..they gt the patience to do every thing fast n nice in a short period of time. will update again k..

Updates!!!!

2006-07-07T09:43:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i have update my blog.. well.. have been busy working.. singing.. trying to meet the standards of others in terms of performance.. hmm my bf now in camp... only book out on sat night then sun got to book in le.. he seems very moody nowadays.. dunno y.. seems tat he give me cold shoulder nowadays.. everytime he call me the first thing he say :" gt anything to tell me, if not then byebye" sigh felt quite sad to hear tat, i thought he would say something like "i miss u", etc.... but seems tat i dun hear it at all..

last week went to batam with my parents so was not able to meet him.. then yesterday he called me... he sounds very pekchek.. very angry with me cos i could not meet him.. but it was last week incident le.. but to him, it is still as like something tat happen one day b4.. sigh... then he say he dun wan to talk to me, cos he dun feel like talking to me, i felt damn heart-broken by his words.. wat's happening?? have i changed or did anything wrong?? i dun think so.. or he has changed?? sigh.. on wed i went down to tb to practise singing, then he called me so i told him i practising singing, then the next min, he say he wan to sleep then he hung up the call. i tried calling him but he dun wan to pick up.. i asked him yesterday y he did not pick up, he say he does not wan to pick up.. i felt real sad.. how can he say this kind of thing, he does not wan to pick up?? guys in ns usually will miss their gf a lot.. but yet he does not wan to talk to me, does not wan to pick up my calls.. then wat kind of gf am i to him?? or he already find me redundant.. perhaps he juz lost interest in me anymore.. love for me has decreased... sigh.. if thats so i really got nothing to say le.. then perhaps i should leave him if he really dun love me as much le, will not tie him down also.. he wun feel so vexed also ba.. but i still love him lots.. sigh.. dunno wat to do also.. shall wait and see ba..

still at work

2006-05-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

Hmm now is 10plus, and i am still in office.. tired siah.. but getting used to it this kind of lifestyle.. hee.. quite happy cos in June i will be getting an assignment for a show at Malaysia.. this coming monday will be going to let the hairstylist take a "gd" look at my hair b4 deciding wat kind of hairstyle they will wan to style for me for the show.. hee hee.. happy happy, been very long since the last time i did a show.. been taking lots of photoshoot for portfolio.. hopefully can take more pics during this coming show to add to my portfolio.. hee.. nowadays busy singing and now i even learning how to dance.. quite excited abt it cos its something very new to me.. hee hee.. will be going to Malaysia in July to sing and hopefully can go to Taiwan in Dec as well for holiday.. hee hee..

worn out and heart broken

2006-03-15T18:11:00.000+08:00

juz called my boyfriend to tell him i received my ACCA student card.. but the course is damn ex.. cost me 285pounds which is equivalent to S$855.. sigh.. nowadays education costs is damn high, so wanted to ask if he can lend mi money to pay for it or not.. think my approach not very gd ba.. he very angry cos he say everytime i call him, the 1st thing that came out from my mouth is borrowing money and etc.. sigh.. really sorry abt it.. but i juz spend way too much on my expenses.. then later i began to chat with him, then i started asking him y is it that everytime when he play game, he cannot chat with me.. cos i find that everytime he play game, he will be concentrating on his game so much that he does not wan to chat with me, then if i insist, he will start flaring his temper.. sigh.. so i told him that i really want to chat with him cos its like i only meet him once a week nowadays as i am busy with my stuff.. so i started asking him y he cannot pause his game for a while juz to chat with me.. then he started flaring temper at me on the phone.. he started raising his voice, saying everyday play game is his only time to destress then i called at the wrong timing, so too bad he cannot chat with me.. he say he called mi earlier but i working so juz too bad.. i quite hurt by his words.. y he so mean to me nowdays?? i have been controlling my temper everytime he yell at me or flare his temper at me.. y am i getting this kind of treatment from him..i merely juz wan to chat with him as i miss him so much.. then i told him that seems like game is more impt than mi, then he started flaring his temper.. saying i get on his nerves.. i kept quiet thru out the conversation with him, trying to hold my temper, trying not to flare my temper.. those who know mi for years should know i dun usually hold my temper.. but i dun understand.. despite holding my temper, trying to talk to him without raising my voice, he continued yelling and flaring his temper at me.. y is it so?? y is it so that despite mi holding my temper hoping that he will try to control his temper, he still continue flaring and yelling at me?? he told mi i got on his nerves and he is very dependent on mood. then he continue flaring his temper at me.. i dun think i deserve this kind of treatment from him.. really felt damn hurt, at times i felt like giving it up cos i really cannot stand his temper.. he really hurts me deeply.. then he hang up the call saying he going to PS later, ask if i still got anything to say.. i kept quiet cos i was crying.. then he said :"bye"... thats all he said... wat is happening?? y nowadays he kept flaring temper at me when i never even do so.. he kept saying i get on his nerves.. but y he cannot control his temper.. y he juz have to scold me when he not happy abt it, y must flare at me.. y must yell me.. i really feel very hurt.. really heartbroken...sob sob sob...

finally online to blog. update update update!!!

2005-10-24T11:45:00.000+08:00

well.. think many of u should noe i am attached.. hee hee.. recently took a portfolio.. hee hee.. will upload soon.. long long time never go out with wendy, liling and karen le.. miss ya lots lots.. we all too busy with many stuff on hand le..must miss me k.. free must sms mi k.. currently working in ernst and young.. now off-peak so quite relax... will be saving up as much as i can so that in dec i can enrol for ACCA course..:) today a bit sick :( stomach pain pain.. got air like tat.. bloated... my throat pain pain when swallow things down.. my nose block till very jialat.. when sleep in air con room.. kenna block till damn jialat.. must use mouth to breathe.. think tats y my throat became damn dry till now damn pain ba.. and also the main reason why my stomach bloated ba.. haiz.. sian.. but luckily, gt company doctor.. so dun have to pay a single cent.. haha

blog blog..

2005-07-20T11:13:00.000+08:00

give some updates on my life ba.. hee hee... still the same.. work 5 1/2 day per week.. went for an audition during the weekwend... yeah.. gone thru it le.. will be performing on 27 and 28 August which is Sat and Sun.. will be performing ard 20-30mins per day.. hee hee.. so happy.. the venue that i'll be performing will be either Paragon or Far East Plaza...hee hee...so happy.. got my pay le... ard 800++ but used it to pay the utilities bill, starhub cable and my M1 hdph bill which cost ard 351 bucks.. Realised that i am getting a bit temperamental nowadays.. hmm... maybe a bit stress ba.. cos i doing accounts... trying to manage it better..this sat will be meeting wendy they all to celebrate my bday at the Singapore Yacht Club.. actually wanted to cancel it cos i find that not many ppl in my bday list going.. but after much persuasion and effort from Jinx to get more ppl to turn up, i decide to carry on the event on sat ba... hopefully it will be fun ba.. will be bringing absolute vanilla over also.. heehee..

time to update my blog le..

2005-07-09T19:32:00.000+08:00

hmm.. recently have been working in IMC,as Accounts Executive... from last wed i will be directly under the Director.. which i think is better.. and quite cool also.. cos i gt my own room, own set of keys.. hee hee.. and no one can talk to me except for the top management team.. hee.. my room also can see the merlion and fullerton hotel there..

Recently heard from Wendy that Weijian is out of the finals.. sad sad.. haiz.... must try to vote for him during the revival round..

Morning......

2005-06-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday called Wendy, hmm.. she explained everything to me.. so i shall take it as its ok now ba.. :) Juz called up Ernst & Young, i checked with the HR Dept regarding if they had receive my email on the job application or not.. hmm.. seems that they received it cos when i told them my name, they said they saw my application and are aware that i was an intern at their place during last year Nov 2004 to this year Jan 2005, and they are even aware that i went for the exchange programme and has just came back. Then they started chatting with me asking mi whether i going to further my studies or not.. then i told them i intend to take up part time ACCA course. Then afterwhich, they asked me when did i send the email over... then i told them it was on fri, then afterwhich, finally, they say they will go and check the mail box and will forward it to the department. From this conversation, can tell that the HR dept damn free lor.. i called them up to check if they receive the email, they had a small chat with me, asking if i pursuing my studies or not.. -_-"

Later will be going for an interview at People Park Center at 430pm. Will be having an interview for a job at a local firm. They intend to hire me as accounts assistant, they intend to train me to do full set accounts, which i think is a good idea.. cos being skilled to do full set accounts, i will be very experienced and in a company, not many ppl can do full set accounts.. hee hee.. the pay is $1,550/mth, after probation period, they will increase my salary proportional to my performance. :)

hmm.. bored..

2005-06-16T02:34:00.000+08:00

bored.. gt nothing to do.. hmm.. shall upload some pics ba.. think it was the previous day i put on makeup and took some pics.. hee hee..

mi with my specs and makeup

mi without specs but with makeup

hmm.. so which one look better?? with specs or without?? hee

yesterday called Jinx, wanted to tell him i am attached.. hmm.. but he got the news earlier.. cos he heard it from Liling..and i guess Liling got it from Wendy ba.. cos i only told Wendy about it..hmm.. but seems that Liling's response was not very positive.. was quite depressing instead.. wat i heard from Jinx was that Liling was saying if one day i come back crying.. it was quite predictable also.. haiz.. i hear le felt very sad.. did cried a bit bit cos really feel very sad.. i really hope they would give me their blessing.. but wat i got in the end was such depressing remarks.. haiz.. really felt very sad abt it.. but then there is nothing i can do abt it also.. cos that's wat they think.. no point explaining to them also ba.. since i find that there is a bit of prejudice against my bf. so shall leave it as it is ba.. so maybe the best solution is when i am with them, i will not mention my bf at all ba.. will not ask him along when i am with them also ba.. think it will be better ba.. haiz.. haiz.. sad sad..

still waiting...

2005-06-15T09:07:00.000+08:00

Last friday sent my resume and cover letter to Ernst & Young.. hmm.. waiting for them to get back to me.. hopefully they will get back to me soon ba.. today went for an interview at Fish & Co. will start work in july.. currently need a lot of money cos really hope to treat Jinx they all for dinner for my bday celebration on 23rd july and also need to pay for the chalet.. will be working this weekend for the credit card roadshow.. bo bian.. need to work ba.. need lots of money.. if not will not work there also ba.. next week will be working from wed to sun for the roadshow... so will not be able to go to JB with Mandy to watch "Initial D"..

Been a long time since got chat with Wendy.. miss her so much.. miss the days when i chat with her everyday.. hmm.. but cannot blame her also.. cos she gt tons of homework need to do.. somemore everyday travel from west to east.. very tiring for her too.. hope she is feeling happy nowadays.. will try to contact her everytime if possible.. hee..

finally blogging again

2005-06-13T04:10:00.000+08:00

phew!! finally blogging again.. was quite busy these days, meeting up with my frens, passing them their gifts.. have met up wendy they all last week.. it was very fun.. enjoy it to bits.. hee hee.. quite tired now.. yesterday went out with Andy, he got free tix to the "Phus Chu Kang Musical".. the symphony orchestra is good.. think is singapore symphony orchestra.. surprisely, they sangt quite well, gurmit singh sang well.. the musical play was not bad.. would give it 68 out of 100.. afterwhich, when i was walking out of the stadium, i saw Catherine and Care.. then i went out with them, went to Suntec City.. hmm.. to my surprise, suntec was having their midnight sales.. the things was really cheap.. and nice.. hee hee.. the temptation is there, but i no money to buy... so well. can only go for window shopping.. afterwhich, i went to boat quay with them.. went to the ktv pub.. did ask kay along to accompany me.. cos was a little bored.. cos i went out with Catherine and her bunch of colleagues and care.. so was quite awkward to hang out with them.. so ask kay along..:)

Wendy just called to ask mi go bugis.. but cannot go.. cos yesterday reach home very late.. today mum dun let mi go out.. somemore she gt cook tonight.. yeah... finally eating home-cooked food... miss my mum's cooking so much.. hee hee....

for wendy and mandy, my flight info

2005-05-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

my flight no. is SQ 805, at terminal 2, expected arrival time is 940pm, most prob will be out at 10 pm latest if there is no delay of flight. so shall see u 2 at the arrival hall, remember to check for the belt no. can check thru teletext or at the airport itself. so wendy since u gt lesson on monday in the morning, then think is best that u pass me the phone, then go home straight.. if not u not enough sleep.. :D onz ma wendy?? confirm with me latest by friday regarding wats the arrangement on sunday k :)

P.S 4 more days i will be back.. haha :D

yeah.. 8 more days i will be back

2005-05-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

very happy and excited.. hee.. will be back soon.. will meet up with all of u soon.. haha.. yesterday was chatting with wendy... so happy... she tell mi that jinx will be helping me to book the apartment suite with sea view at the Republic of Singapore Yacht Club.. so cool.. my bday wish came true.. yeah.. happy happy.. hee hee.. liling told mi that when i come back, there will be lots of good food waiting for me.. haha... happy happy.. on the day when i will be arriving.. wendy n mandy will be picking me up.. haha.. afterwhich may be having a small chat if possible.. cos wendy gt lesson on mon.. so not confirm yet whether will be having a small chat or not.. after which, maybe my guy fren's fren will be sending mi home.. then after that maybe going for supper.. shall see how it goes ba.. all not confirm yet..
yesterday had a chat with Liling, then was wondering how come jinx suddenly help mi book the suite when initially we ask him, he was quite reluctant abt it.. then she say that she gt no idea also.. cos it was like wendy was asking mandy's fren to help book the suite since i wanted very much to celebrate at there.. then jinx overheard it and volunteered to help.. really very touched by wat wendy and mandy did.. they actually had been helping mi to find someone to book the suite for me.. thanks ya.. love u 2 much much.. thanks jinx and liling also.. hee hee.. love u 2 much much also.. haha..

P.S if you all wanna have a preview of wat kind of apartment suite i have booked, click on this url: http://www.rsyc.org.sg/facilities/accom.htm

Feeling nauseous

2005-05-14T01:59:00.000+08:00

feeling very sick now.. feel like vomiting.. have migraine.. cried too much yesterday.. now sick.. right side of my brain hurts now.. really feel so sick now.. sob sob :'( off i go now... *vanish into the air*

i failed to accomplish wat i wanted to do

2005-05-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

when i decide to come for this exchg trip, i have decided to start afresh, to leave singapore for a while.. to settle myself.. so that when i come back to singapore, i can start everything afresh.. but it seems that i cannot get away with the relationship thingy... i like someone despite the fact i am in china.. and kenna the same ending again.. i thought i was here to keep it away from me.. but yet, i fell for it again.. sian.. then now i am going back soon.. so it means that the getaway did not help mi at all.. i am still tat gullible..wiling to put 100% trust in him.. but it seems that my trust for him is wrong again.. sian.. always that gullible..pouring myself all over that guy.. thinking of him now and then... but in the end.. never get appreaciated again...sob sob.. really feeling very sad..:'( eyes puffy puffy again..

bored

2005-05-10T10:26:00.000+08:00

hmm.. feeling quite bored, cos was at home whole day to prevent myself from spending too much.. ate maggi mee for lunch, fried rice and cucumber ice cream for dinner.. love the cucumber ice cream to bits.. hee hee.. these few days till i come back, will not be chatting with that guy ba.. cos want him to rest as he is still sick... the doctor told him that it is not dengue fever, its juz some virus thingy that make him so sick -_-" sorry ya, as you need lots of rest so will leave u alone till u recover... p.s if u want to look for me, email me.

whole day stay in the room, dying siah.. gt nothing to do at all.. only chatted with wendy for few mins in the noon, then went to sleep while waiting for ppl to msn me.. but in the end when i wake up in the evening, no one msn me at all.. hmm.. sian.. then after i come back from my dinner, also on one msg me except for mandy.. she say she picking me up at the airport.. so nice of her.. she say she miss me a lot.. haha.. touched siah..

have packed all my stuff in my luagage le.. left some clothes and stuff that i will put in the bag that i will hand carry in.. wondering when i come back, will there be lots of changes ard me... hmm... shall see then..

20 more days b4 i am back

2005-05-09T13:43:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 20 more days.. feeling sleepy now.. so my this post will be a bit blur blur ba.. hee hee.. listening to yang qian hua's song titled "yong". Very nice song, saying abt how a girl do lots of things for a guy without hoping for any returns from the guy she like and the guy dun appreciate her at all. Very sad song.. but i like it a lot.. hee hee.. very very gd lyrics.. luv it.. but hear till sad sad..cos she sing till sad sad.. hee hee.. but very nice song.. luv it..

Hmm.. feeling quite excited to go back but at the same time, i dun feel like going back cos need to face all the financial probs.. need to settle a lot of things.. need to plan for my bday thingy.. need to find a job asap, need to meet up with all my frens to pass them their gifts, need to take the chinchilla from karen, need to make the chinchilla feel comfortable, make it realise that i am the owner, need to unpack all my stuffs, re-arrange all the stuff in my cupboard..

sian sian.. tired le.. need to go rest soon le.. no money le.. scare my luagage overweight.. thinking when i come back, will my parents pick mi up ma.. quite happy that wendy will be there to meet me to pass mi my hdph.. thanks wendy..cos u will need to travel all the way from the airport back to woodlands.. That guy may be picking mi at the airport.. but quite paiseh for him to travel all the way down from his place to airport juz to pick mi up ba.. so dunno will see him at the airport or not.. see how ba.. yawns.. go sleep le.. nights everyone..

2005-05-08T11:46:00.000+08:00

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found the luncheon meat that i want in China

2005-05-07T07:59:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally found the "ma ling" brand luncheon meat in China.. it taste nice nice.. exactly like the one in Singapore..hee.. 23 more days b4 i am back in Singapore.. must wait for mi to come back hor.. very fast i can go out play with u all le :D

yesterday chatted with tat guy... hmm.. these few days never see him online cos he is formating his com.. he is down with high fever these few days... poor thing... was quite touched that despite him having fever, he tried to get online during the past 2 days, hoping to chat with me.. but yet feeling a little guilty cos i was not ard and did not really show my concern to him ba.. >.< i dunno how to show my concern leh.. i do care abt him.. but i juz dunno how to show out... feeling a bit guilty for making him feel a little disappointed cos i dun sound caring enough...
But quite happy that he miss me and want to chat with me...hee hee...

miss my handphone siah.. lol.. i miss the feel of my handphone in my palm.. hmm.. Sky going back this week.. a little sian cos i not able to see him b4 he go back to Taiwan.. Bon Voyage Sky..

paranoid over worms..

2005-05-05T14:56:00.000+08:00

today went to climb mountain with one of the china lecturer.. then it was drizzling.. on the way climbing up, i saw a big, gigantic worm, crawling beside me, eee.. i immediately freak out.. i ran and jump away away from it.. just like the way those character in the anime did when they run away.. in split secs, i was far far away from it..lol.. then now when i walk on the pathway that has grass beside it, i gets damn paranoid.. Imagine.. there are more than 10 worms along the pathway, up the mountain.. yucks.. in the end we never finish climbing the mountain.. cos my lecturer is afraid of it also..

she treat us to a fine restaurant, the food there is fantastic.. hee hee.. juz now tried smsing the online guy, but dunno y, no reply.. hmm.. wondering if it got thru..
was supposed to chat with him at evening time, but in the end, i juz came back -_-" wondering is it bcos he is still reformating his com thats y he is not online?? hmm.. see how ba.. haiz... tml going out again.. will be back at night.. see if can see him online or not tml night ba.. jialat, kind of miss him...>.< ( p.s dun worry wendy and mandy, i miss u all much much also.. miss our 'gang' hee hee)

mi n my lingerie

2005-05-04T02:45:00.000+08:00

hee hee.. nice pice taken when i wore my lingerie last night.. pic will be uploaded in wendy's blog.. hee hee.. like it so much.. yesterday had lots of fun at my fren's KTV pub. Was the DJ for the night, as his staff never go to work due to the labour day is one whole week holiday. Me and my fren struggled thru the night with all the songs dedicated from the customers. My fren search for the songs while i played them and adjust the mic and music volume. quite fun.hee hee. i will be going over in the afternoon to help my fren rearrange the CDs in the pub, then at night will help him be DJ again..Cool rit!!! hee hee

I thought my online guy will be out the whole day yesterday so i went to the pub, but in the end he was at home, feeling feverish.. >.< sorry that i could not chat with u yesterday>.< Today i will be back after 11:30pm, dunno he will be online or not cos he need to work tml.. hmm.. if he not online, then nvm ba.. sick patient need more rest de..hee

time to update my blog

2005-04-29T12:32:00.000+08:00

going to class in 6mins time... update my blog a bit bit ba.. last week i was in Shanghai, was quite fun, my mum's colleague treat me for dinner.. had beijing dishes and also shanghai dishes.. they treat me quite well, stay at my mum's colleague's place during my stay at shanghai. Went to the amusement park with penny as well.. but did not really go to many places, but was quite fun ba.. at least i took many pics of the night scenery of shanghai.. not really spectacular but was quite nice ba.. 31 more days b4 i go back.. yeah.. will get to see my bunch of close frens very soon.. will see huiping, liling, jinx, wendy, mandy and qingxi very soon..miss u all so much.. for the past few mths, have been chatting with u all only on msn siah.. cannot see u all in person.. miss the laughter on all of ur faces.. miss all the lame jokes and fun we had together.

sian...

2005-04-19T13:46:00.000+08:00

maybe afterall its not a gd thing to be too close or talkative to a person..cos the topics will dried up gradually.. then will be left with nothing to say anymore. Thats the lesson i learnt. Even if there maybe interest within each other, once there is no more topics to chat abt, no communication anymore, everything will be so bland and the interest will be gone sooner or later.

So what if i gt skype, everyone is busy, if not, is due to the above mentioned thingy, nothing to chat abt anymore, who would want to chat with me.. dl for wat?? for fun?? to occupy the space in my com?? maybe its time to uninstall it. waste the space.

Is chatting very important in my life?? maybe ba.. if thats the case, maybe i should quit this habit.. dun chat i will not die.. wats the use of chatting when i cannot find anyone to chat.. So from today onwards, i shall quit the habit of chatting. Maybe blogging is the better option....

Feeling happy

2005-04-19T07:03:00.000+08:00

Very happy that though i am stil in China, i am still able to view partial of the Song Composing Club concert.. Thanx to Wendy that i am able to view it.. hee..
Love 30th August tat song.. yaowen as usual.. sang very well.. my idol.. yuchun as usual.. with his magic hands.. played very well too.. hear till damn shiok..
Its been a long time since the last time i heard this song..in love with it.. hee..
Really wish to get back to Singapore siah.. but once i get back, i will not be so free, slacking ard le.. need to find job, earn money for my bday celebration,pay hdph bills, meet up all my frens n loved ones to give them the gifts i bought for them and etc..

After some thoughts, i totally agreed with Wendy's statement.. which is to wait for ppl to contact me instead of me going ard, messaging ppl thru msn, waiting for them to reply, waiting in vain in the end.. maybe i should learn not to message them or wait for them to reply ba.. if they really miss me, they really care abt me, they really wanna chat with me, they will msg me themselves ba.. think thats the best way ba.

Kenna shouted by my roommate for nothing

2005-04-17T10:08:00.000+08:00

Damn pissed with penny, one of my roommate. We were supposed to go out for dinner together with Lianjie, one of the student who came for the exchange programme as well.

But later, Yue er called me to ask me if i want to have dinner with her at the school canteen, as i am on tight budget, i agreed. So i told penny that i not having dinner with her cos i wan to save money as having dinner outside is much more ex than the school canteen. So she asked me to call Lianjie to ask if he wants to join me to eat at canteen while penny will buy dinner back from outside.In the midst of asking Lianjie using penny's hdph, yue er called my room's phone to inform me to go to canteen one instead of canteen two for dinner. So while i answered yue er's call, penny chatted with lianjie. After hanging up with Yue er, as penny is chatting with lianjie, i asked her to ask lianjie if he wan to join or not as i need to go out now, she immediately shouted at me, say she chatting with lianjie, can't i ask later. I was damn pissed off lor.. she is the one who ask me to ask lianjie, then in the end kenna shouted at..

Damn pissed off with her lor.. no wonder she gt no bf.. she deserve it!!!

time to update my blog

2005-04-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

left 48 days b4 i go back to singapore..feel like going back now siah.. sick of the food liao.. all chinese food, i miss laksa,jap food,italian food and thai food and almond jelly and jinx's ham n cheese omelette, liling's laughter, wendy's lameness(haha),huiping's cuteness, mandy's blurness and etc..

Miss my room.. dunno my sis gt anyhow touch my things or not.. lol.. see my mum and dad gt look older or not.. my elder sis gt sing better or not.. miss my chinchilla also... but it passed away le.. sad sad... but nvm.. karen will give me hers.. hee hee.. this time rd, i'll make sure i take gd care of it and will not go overseas le.. must take gd care of it.. dun let other ppl touch it or disturb it >.<

wore the lingerie that i bought to last night, now i noe y lingerie is usually made of silk, cos its so comfortable siah.. feels soft and cooling.. dun feel warm at all.. unlike t-shirt..

Feel so sick and tired

2005-04-08T05:28:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. whenever i need ppl to be with me when i am depressed, they are not there.. haiz.. feel so sick and tired.. though i know, they gt their own life too.. maybe i should get used to this kind of life.. juz now went to develop those card size photo of my chinchilla.. wan to keep it in my wallet.. haiz.. feel so sad.. sob sob..still feeling depressed ba..

my chinchilla juz passed away

2005-04-07T10:56:00.000+08:00

my mum juz called mi, she tell mi my chinchilla passed away.. sob sob.. b4 i left for china, i already tell them to take gd care of it lor.. stupid trip, i should not have come here. fuck.. damn upset lor.. it passed away le.. i haven even see it lor..

Stuffing myself with sugar canes

2005-04-07T04:59:00.000+08:00

feeling damn heaty, decided to buy some sugar cane to eat.. i was so shocked when i see the person cut the sugar cane into big big pieces.. then i asked him whether can cut into smaler pieces or not.. he say cannot.. -_-" then i Lan Lan lor.. try to bite it. damn hard at 1st.. later used to it le.. the length of the sugar cane is ard hmm.. 25 cm... total gt 7 pieces.. eat till siao siah.. juz finish 2.. still gt 5 more to go.. scary siah.. really feel like going back to singapore le.. really not enough money to spend le.. how i wish can go back now, then dun have to worry so much, dun have to do budgeting.. haiz..

Fuck Up life in China!!!

2005-04-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hate the life here man.. fuck.. feeling very pekchek over here.. the network sucks lor.. nan bei.. dunno how to elaborate la.. juz fuck up life over here.. life sucks

On Tight Budget

2005-04-04T02:42:00.000+08:00

Shit!!! spent too much le.. the money tat my mum give me, all use finish le.. jialat... sigh.. gotta use the money that i have in my posb bank liao.. sian.. haiz... my mum say gt no money to give me.. so bo bian.. must really go on tight budget le.. jialat.. all my fault.. spent too much le.. >.<

Having moodswing again!!

2005-03-31T15:37:00.000+08:00

Sian.. moodswing liao... jialat... haiz.. waited for my fren to be online but he is not.. haiz.. y am i waiting for him to be online nowadays?? am i over-reacting?? haiz.. he gt his own life too.. even if he say tat he will be back by 8pm and he did not get online till now (11:37pm), i should not be feeling so sian... haiz.. dun like this kind of feeling... i am afraid to fall for him.. afraid to like a person.. haiz.. gt a angel n devil in my mind again.. sian.. haiz...on one side of mi, i know that i cannot fall for a person juz in this manner.. he is juz a guy i know online.. i never meet him before.. how can i have feelings for him... somemore its juz a online thingy.. but the other side of me is telling me i should relax ba.. dun think so much ba.. juz enjoy the online relationship. But, overall, i am very scared to fall for him even if its an online thingy.. gt chat with him today, gt a feeling that he has started to lose some interest in me le.. dunno y.. maybe its my instinct ba.. dunno is it rite or not.. maybe i think too much.. maybe.. maybe.. maybe...

Wendy is not online also.. if not she can give me advice and can cheer me up.. but i cannot always depend on her also ba.. she gt her life too, she need to accompany her bf as well...

Haiz.. maybe i should juz go and rest ba.. when i wake up tml, i will not have this kind of thinking again ba...

Tml going to zoo!!!

2005-03-31T14:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. actually was thinking whether to go or not.. cos if tat guy is online whole day tml.. then maybe will be staying at home.. so can chat with him and at the same time, save money.. hee hee.. but till now he is not online yet.. though he say he will be back ard 8plus de.. >.< ( now is 10:18pm) Hmm... think i should not get so sian ba.. he gt his life wat.. he dun have to report to me every hour -_-"

Saw a comment left on my blog.. wow.. its been a long time the last time ppl leftcomment in my blog le.. hee hee.. hmm.. to the person who left the comment on my blog, thanks for ur concern abt tat person whom u said gt back stab mi b4.. but i dun care abt tat at all, i dun care if frens ard me back stab me.. as long as i am happy with my life now, ppl ard me backstabbing is not of my concern at all.. thanks for ur concern ya...

Brand New Day for me!!

2005-03-30T13:45:00.000+08:00

Yawns, i juz wake up.. hee hee..slept at 12am last night, wake up at 1:48pm..hee hee... last night helped karen, my chio bu, to buy the tube that i bought and also the top that i bought.. hee hee.. so when we go out together, we wear the same tops, think we will look like sisters..haha...
Have decided to stay at my dorm for the whole week, to save up money.. sian... tats the price i have to pay for buying too many clothes.. haiz.. mi spent too much liao..
Bo bian.. cannot resist temptations la..hee hee.. skipped my lesson today cos i wan to sleep more.. hee hee.. too lazy to get up.. somemore dun like the lectures here.. that lecturer write the chinese words damn cursive.. hard to read.. somemore i forget to bring my specs.. it makes mi more pekchek to go for the lecture siah... haiz.. mi lazy to go lecture.. a bit guilty siah...

Bought another 2 tops and a denim short skirt.. jialat

2005-03-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

cannot stop the temptation siah.. buy again le.. jialat.. and i still wan to buy a la senza lingerie which cost ard S$16 and a 3/4 pants at ardS$15.. jialat.. going very broke le.. haiz.. jialat jialat.. need some sponsorers le.. anyone wanna volunteer to sponsor?? do give me a comment if u r keen to volunteer to sponsor for my expenses.. haha.. today did nothing.. fell asleep in my lecture today.. hee hee.. its really very boring lecture..

On shopping therapy

2005-03-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

Today went on shopping therapy..hee hee.. bought 2 pink tops. one is a tube, the other one is a pink shirt whereby the back part is v-shape.. quite nice.. hee hee.. spend RMB80 on both tops. which is ard S$16 all together. so sian.. haiz.. was supposed to tok to my fren who promise mi he will be home whole day today to chat with me.. but in the end he juz msn mi, tell me he got to go out.. and so i never chat with him at all today.. how wonderful it is man... sian.. n thats the reason why i went on shopping therapy.. too bored le.. gt no phone.. cannot call liling n wendy.. cannot go look for them as and when i like.. as i am in china.. sian.. haiz...

Gd Morning!!

2005-03-23T05:16:00.000+08:00

Juz wake up.. haiz.. i was aready on bed at 12 plus, but my rm mate was using the skype to chat.. then make me damn irritated cos when i sleep, i dun like to have any noise ard me. She was giggling when i was abt to sleep.. sian.. i was a bit pissed with her, but never say out la..not tat gd to complain over such things.... juz wake up not long ago.. feeling a bit sian.. cos i so late then online but seems like no one is online... wendy is not online yet( think she still sleeping ba), my "fren" is not online also, karen also not online... the rest that are online, i not very keen to chat with them.. still i am always that picky ba.. always choose ppl to chat to.. juz drank a cup of coffee.. hopefully my day will brighten up ba..

bought 2 skirts, one pair of boots, one sexy top..hee

2005-03-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

So happy... i bought the things tat i like.. dun even need to think abt money issue cos the coversion is S$1 :RMB$5 ... hee hee.. bought 2 skirt for S$20, one pair of boots at S$10, one sexy top from BCBG at S$9... so happy.. hee hee..
On wed night, mi n my np frens who came for the exchg prog with me, celebrated one of my frens bday at one of the china students ktv pub.. so cool, drank 4 bottles of beer, 2 glass of red wine and 2 cups of baileys.. so cool... hee hee.. sang a lot of songs also.. sang sun yan zi's new album songs, sang rong zu er's song and also liang jing ru's song.. then gt one china guy came to know me.. haha..
st 1st i went to take the mic after this guy sang, then he say i sing very nice..haha.. then i juz smile.. then later i went to the bartender there, wanted to choose songs, then tat guy talk to me, but i dun understand a single thing tat he is saying.. cos u noe the chinese accent too much la.. so i only smile back.. haha... then i walk away again.. then later mi n my frens danced then he came over to me, asking for my contact.. and i tell him i dun have hdph, which is true, though sounds a bit lame..so i only give him my email address.. haha.. but later i saw him with a girl, he kiss tat girl.. hmm.. guys regardless which country they r from, they r the same.. all flirts... haha.. he never email me.. by the way his hdph damn chio.. whole thing is touch screen one..lol.. will update again when i gt more happening to say.. heee... this sat going to see panda in the zoo.. though i see the mirror i can see one liao..hee

jealous n envy

2005-03-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

thanks to my fren, gilbert, he copy n paste tat girl's blog in word format n send it to me.. after reading i am damn jealous and envy.. jealous cos she gets to ENJOY WITH MY FRENS, envy cos she is enjoying herself so much.. not like me.. everyday waiting for MY FRENS TO CALL ME, waiting for MY FRENS TO TALK TO ME IN MSN, missing MY CHINCHILLA, missing MY MUM, nagging about how much I LOATHE THE FOOD, nagging about how much I HATE MY FREN FOR NEGLECTING ME ever since liking a guy who came with us for the exchg trip, nagging about MY PROJECTS, nagging about MY LIFE over here, counting HOW MANY TRUE AND REAL FRENS I HAVE, reflecting on why I GOT SO MANY ACQAINTANCES, HATING MYSELF for treating ppl so nice when they DOES NOT EVEN CONSIDER ME AS THEIR FREN, HATING MY FRENS WHO BACKSTABBED ME.. and etc..

so well, in conclusion, I HATE THE WORLD AND MYSELF.. I AM JUST A BITCH WHO GOES ARD COMPLAINING!!!!!!

sian..

2005-03-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

Fuck!! tat gal msn me, telling how fun it was last night.. enjoying her time, asking me to view her blog.. sian.. i not able to attend already very sian liao lor.. still must add salt add vinegar.. na bei.. see bei du lan.. haiz.. the project i doing sucks also... by rite, before i came over to china, they stated clearly i will not be assessed on the things tat i do here.. but now, they wan the lecturer in china to assess my work.. and i need to do an interim report and final report and hand in when i am back in Singapore.. kns.. if i knew i gt to do all these shit stuff, i would not have apply for it.. i would not come over here, i will be able to attend the party.. i will not get so agitated by tat girl.. fuck it la.. see bei sian..

one of my nails broke..sob

2005-03-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

sob sob juz repaint my fake nails last week, then juz now plugging my adapter, then my nail broke.. sob sob.. so sad..

finally i get online!!!

2005-03-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

very sorry to jinx, liling, mandy n wendy... did not noe u all took such a difficult time calling me.. hmm... my country code is 86, area code is 571, room is 88401234, did not noe tat phoenix card so lousy... today will be having my 1st lesson at 130pm.. saving money now... sorry wendy..i did not take pics of the thing i wan to buy for u... think i buying a compact mirror for u, its pink cover, butterfly in silver... can ma? i haven buy yet.. dunno u wan or not.. my msn can work now.. think the internet is stable now.. but still cannot view my blogspot account... stuipid siah...

struggling to get online

2005-03-01T14:34:00.000+08:00

has been in china for a week.. hmmm... sms wendy, ask her to give me a call using those phoenix card but seems that either she never receive or she find it too ex to call ba.. sian.. have been feeling very bored in china.. nothing to do over here.

been shopping for toiletries and stuff like tat... hmm... miss yuchun, wendy, jinx, liling n huiping so much..

miss huiping's craps.. actually would say i miss wendy the most siah... my closest fren of mine.. the food is alright, all very "qing dan", ppl here.. hmm... well i would say they treat u very well if u know them, if u dun know them thats it.. they can be very crude, hostile and mean...

hate taking the public bus over here, they would rush n squeeze up the bus as if tats the one n only bus in the world.. sucks man... but its from there i learnt how to squeeze thru my way, hitting them with my hips n pushing them away.. haha...

only gt lessons in the morning on wed, thurs n friday.. sat till tues gt no lessons.. want to go shanghai but scare spend too much money.. by the way was tinking to get a bag or hdph for wendy siah... saw a pink hdph over here.. though its a china brand, but the design is cute.. cost ard S$200... the bags are ard S$40... all quite nice... wendy will love the shops over here... gt lots of pink stuff over here..

was feeling very vexed over the internet stuff here.. gt difficulty setting up the internet here.. was so angry that i throw my anger by slamming my room door hard everytime... jialat.. gt a fiery temper siah... hmm.. hopefully the frens that i miss, will miss mi too... actually was a bit disappointed that wendy did not call mi n sms mi back... haiz..

p.s: to everyone who see this blog, do drop me a email k.. shirleychia727@msn.com shirleychia@yahoo.com

.i.am.nicholas.

2005-01-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

.i.am.nicholas.

Welcome

2004-10-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! This is my 3rd blog le... used xanga and livejournal b4... hmm.. trying out this new blog to see if it is really useful and cater to my needs... meanwhile will be inviting all my frens over here... hope will enjoy blogging over here...