Thursday, March 31, 2005
Sian.. moodswing liao... jialat... haiz.. waited for my fren to be online but he is not.. haiz.. y am i waiting for him to be online nowadays?? am i over-reacting?? haiz.. he gt his own life too.. even if he say tat he will be back by 8pm and he did not get online till now (11:37pm), i should not be feeling so sian... haiz.. dun like this kind of feeling... i am afraid to fall for him.. afraid to like a person.. haiz.. gt a angel n devil in my mind again.. sian.. haiz...on one side of mi, i know that i cannot fall for a person juz in this manner.. he is juz a guy i know online.. i never meet him before.. how can i have feelings for him... somemore its juz a online thingy.. but the other side of me is telling me i should relax ba.. dun think so much ba.. juz enjoy the online relationship. But, overall, i am very scared to fall for him even if its an online thingy.. gt chat with him today, gt a feeling that he has started to lose some interest in me le.. dunno y.. maybe its my instinct ba.. dunno is it rite or not.. maybe i think too much.. maybe.. maybe.. maybe...
Wendy is not online also.. if not she can give me advice and can cheer me up.. but i cannot always depend on her also ba.. she gt her life too, she need to accompany her bf as well...
Haiz.. maybe i should juz go and rest ba.. when i wake up tml, i will not have this kind of thinking again ba...
3:37:00 PM
Hmm.. actually was thinking whether to go or not.. cos if tat guy is online whole day tml.. then maybe will be staying at home.. so can chat with him and at the same time, save money.. hee hee.. but till now he is not online yet.. though he say he will be back ard 8plus de.. >.< ( now is 10:18pm) Hmm... think i should not get so sian ba.. he gt his life wat.. he dun have to report to me every hour -_-"
Saw a comment left on my blog.. wow.. its been a long time the last time ppl leftcomment in my blog le.. hee hee.. hmm.. to the person who left the comment on my blog, thanks for ur concern abt tat person whom u said gt back stab mi b4.. but i dun care abt tat at all, i dun care if frens ard me back stab me.. as long as i am happy with my life now, ppl ard me backstabbing is not of my concern at all.. thanks for ur concern ya...
2:24:00 PM
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Yawns, i juz wake up.. hee hee..slept at 12am last night, wake up at 1:48pm..hee hee... last night helped karen, my chio bu, to buy the tube that i bought and also the top that i bought.. hee hee.. so when we go out together, we wear the same tops, think we will look like sisters..haha...
Have decided to stay at my dorm for the whole week, to save up money.. sian... tats the price i have to pay for buying too many clothes.. haiz.. mi spent too much liao..
Bo bian.. cannot resist temptations la..hee hee.. skipped my lesson today cos i wan to sleep more.. hee hee.. too lazy to get up.. somemore dun like the lectures here.. that lecturer write the chinese words damn cursive.. hard to read.. somemore i forget to bring my specs.. it makes mi more pekchek to go for the lecture siah... haiz.. mi lazy to go lecture.. a bit guilty siah...
1:45:00 PM
Friday, March 25, 2005
cannot stop the temptation siah.. buy again le.. jialat.. and i still wan to buy a la senza lingerie which cost ard S$16 and a 3/4 pants at ardS$15.. jialat.. going very broke le.. haiz.. jialat jialat.. need some sponsorers le.. anyone wanna volunteer to sponsor?? do give me a comment if u r keen to volunteer to sponsor for my expenses.. haha.. today did nothing.. fell asleep in my lecture today.. hee hee.. its really very boring lecture..
10:56:00 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Today went on shopping therapy..hee hee.. bought 2 pink tops. one is a tube, the other one is a pink shirt whereby the back part is v-shape.. quite nice.. hee hee.. spend RMB80 on both tops. which is ard S$16 all together. so sian.. haiz.. was supposed to tok to my fren who promise mi he will be home whole day today to chat with me.. but in the end he juz msn mi, tell me he got to go out.. and so i never chat with him at all today.. how wonderful it is man... sian.. n thats the reason why i went on shopping therapy.. too bored le.. gt no phone.. cannot call liling n wendy.. cannot go look for them as and when i like.. as i am in china.. sian.. haiz...
8:23:00 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Juz wake up.. haiz.. i was aready on bed at 12 plus, but my rm mate was using the skype to chat.. then make me damn irritated cos when i sleep, i dun like to have any noise ard me. She was giggling when i was abt to sleep.. sian.. i was a bit pissed with her, but never say out la..not tat gd to complain over such things.... juz wake up not long ago.. feeling a bit sian.. cos i so late then online but seems like no one is online... wendy is not online yet( think she still sleeping ba), my "fren" is not online also, karen also not online... the rest that are online, i not very keen to chat with them.. still i am always that picky ba.. always choose ppl to chat to.. juz drank a cup of coffee.. hopefully my day will brighten up ba..
5:16:00 AM
Friday, March 18, 2005
So happy... i bought the things tat i like.. dun even need to think abt money issue cos the coversion is S$1 :RMB$5 ... hee hee.. bought 2 skirt for S$20, one pair of boots at S$10, one sexy top from BCBG at S$9... so happy.. hee hee..
On wed night, mi n my np frens who came for the exchg prog with me, celebrated one of my frens bday at one of the china students ktv pub.. so cool, drank 4 bottles of beer, 2 glass of red wine and 2 cups of baileys.. so cool... hee hee.. sang a lot of songs also.. sang sun yan zi's new album songs, sang rong zu er's song and also liang jing ru's song.. then gt one china guy came to know me.. haha..
st 1st i went to take the mic after this guy sang, then he say i sing very nice..haha.. then i juz smile.. then later i went to the bartender there, wanted to choose songs, then tat guy talk to me, but i dun understand a single thing tat he is saying.. cos u noe the chinese accent too much la.. so i only smile back.. haha... then i walk away again.. then later mi n my frens danced then he came over to me, asking for my contact.. and i tell him i dun have hdph, which is true, though sounds a bit lame..so i only give him my email address.. haha.. but later i saw him with a girl, he kiss tat girl.. hmm.. guys regardless which country they r from, they r the same.. all flirts... haha.. he never email me.. by the way his hdph damn chio.. whole thing is touch screen one..lol.. will update again when i gt more happening to say.. heee... this sat going to see panda in the zoo.. though i see the mirror i can see one liao..hee
5:18:00 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
thanks to my fren, gilbert, he copy n paste tat girl's blog in word format n send it to me.. after reading i am damn jealous and envy.. jealous cos she gets to ENJOY WITH MY FRENS, envy cos she is enjoying herself so much.. not like me.. everyday waiting for MY FRENS TO CALL ME, waiting for MY FRENS TO TALK TO ME IN MSN, missing MY CHINCHILLA, missing MY MUM, nagging about how much I LOATHE THE FOOD, nagging about how much I HATE MY FREN FOR NEGLECTING ME ever since liking a guy who came with us for the exchg trip, nagging about MY PROJECTS, nagging about MY LIFE over here, counting HOW MANY TRUE AND REAL FRENS I HAVE, reflecting on why I GOT SO MANY ACQAINTANCES, HATING MYSELF for treating ppl so nice when they DOES NOT EVEN CONSIDER ME AS THEIR FREN, HATING MY FRENS WHO BACKSTABBED ME.. and etc..
so well, in conclusion, I HATE THE WORLD AND MYSELF.. I AM JUST A BITCH WHO GOES ARD COMPLAINING!!!!!!
11:25:00 PM
Fuck!! tat gal msn me, telling how fun it was last night.. enjoying her time, asking me to view her blog.. sian.. i not able to attend already very sian liao lor.. still must add salt add vinegar.. na bei.. see bei du lan.. haiz.. the project i doing sucks also... by rite, before i came over to china, they stated clearly i will not be assessed on the things tat i do here.. but now, they wan the lecturer in china to assess my work.. and i need to do an interim report and final report and hand in when i am back in Singapore.. kns.. if i knew i gt to do all these shit stuff, i would not have apply for it.. i would not come over here, i will be able to attend the party.. i will not get so agitated by tat girl.. fuck it la.. see bei sian..
10:59:00 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
sob sob juz repaint my fake nails last week, then juz now plugging my adapter, then my nail broke.. sob sob.. so sad..
1:37:00 AM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
very sorry to jinx, liling, mandy n wendy... did not noe u all took such a difficult time calling me.. hmm... my country code is 86, area code is 571, room is 88401234, did not noe tat phoenix card so lousy... today will be having my 1st lesson at 130pm.. saving money now... sorry wendy..i did not take pics of the thing i wan to buy for u... think i buying a compact mirror for u, its pink cover, butterfly in silver... can ma? i haven buy yet.. dunno u wan or not.. my msn can work now.. think the internet is stable now.. but still cannot view my blogspot account... stuipid siah...
12:13:00 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
has been in china for a week.. hmmm... sms wendy, ask her to give me a call using those phoenix card but seems that either she never receive or she find it too ex to call ba.. sian.. have been feeling very bored in china.. nothing to do over here.
been shopping for toiletries and stuff like tat... hmm... miss yuchun, wendy, jinx, liling n huiping so much..
miss huiping's craps.. actually would say i miss wendy the most siah... my closest fren of mine.. the food is alright, all very "qing dan", ppl here.. hmm... well i would say they treat u very well if u know them, if u dun know them thats it.. they can be very crude, hostile and mean...
hate taking the public bus over here, they would rush n squeeze up the bus as if tats the one n only bus in the world.. sucks man... but its from there i learnt how to squeeze thru my way, hitting them with my hips n pushing them away.. haha...
only gt lessons in the morning on wed, thurs n friday.. sat till tues gt no lessons.. want to go shanghai but scare spend too much money.. by the way was tinking to get a bag or hdph for wendy siah... saw a pink hdph over here.. though its a china brand, but the design is cute.. cost ard S$200... the bags are ard S$40... all quite nice... wendy will love the shops over here... gt lots of pink stuff over here..
was feeling very vexed over the internet stuff here.. gt difficulty setting up the internet here.. was so angry that i throw my anger by slamming my room door hard everytime... jialat.. gt a fiery temper siah... hmm.. hopefully the frens that i miss, will miss mi too... actually was a bit disappointed that wendy did not call mi n sms mi back... haiz..
p.s: to everyone who see this blog, do drop me a email k..
shirleychia727@msn.com shirleychia@yahoo.com
2:34:00 PM
