Friday, June 05, 2009
Finally I decided to meet up with Kaiyan's fren cum classmate, Candy, who is a financial advisor. She was instructed by him to help me manage with my financials in future. He actually asked her to contact me. For your info, Kaiyan has passed away, he was the one i wrote on my previous post.
After having dinner with Candy today, I'm feeling more guilty than before.... despite the fact that i did not visit him, he still care so much for me.. During his stay in SGH, he told Candy to call me when she can cos he was too weak to give me a call. He told her that I'm a girl with lotsa health problem, hope Candy can meet up with me some time in future to ensure that i have a medical insurance as he finally realised the significance of having a medical insurance. Without it, he would not have obtain $240,000 to cover his hospital bills.
After speaking to Candy, I realised how many things he have told Candy about me.. He told her that we were once very close frens. She told me that actually during his wake, she saw a few pics of me and him during the slideshow of pics played on his laptop ( which he specially designed it during the last few days b4 he passed away but i did not see it when i was at his wake).
I knew him in yr 2003 or 2004. We used to hang out with a bunch of friends for jamming sessions and studio recordings. then in 2005 feb i went to China, back in 2005 May but soon i was attached. Met him once again in 2006, then i disappeared again in end 06 or 2007 mid due to some reason (It may have been different if you have asked me earlier)
Just went to read his blog and realised the last time he mentioned abt me is in 2005 Jan b4 i went to China:
"Monday 10012005 Jan 10, '05 8:03 PM
It's a nice date 1001 hee~ reads the same both ways, and it happens to be Minmin's 23rd Birthday! Called her at around 6pm and so bad of her not to remember my voice nor my hp number haha~ Even mistook me for being Yichao! Wa liew! How can you be so heartless? But then again don't blame her also keke~ she's already attached, so it's normal that she gave her attention to Andrew more than me keke~ Best is that I'm only invited to their dinner gathering when I called haha~ I'm sure she's forgotten all about me long long time ago =p
1st day of school and it's relaxing but still there's a bit of sianz in it haha~ well~ I'm sure it's normal for everyone isn't it? keke~ Not speaking for those super talented in studies =p Envy those who can play whole day and get good grades without studying grrrrr!
Normal daily routine of sending Kaiying to school and fetching Mother back from her Chinese Literature classes at night. Best of today was being able to hear Xueli sing =D And yes girl~ have more confidence in yourself especially when singing on stage. Curb your stage fright and you'll soar real high given your talent and hardwork included. Your basics are good enough, now it's just nore of blending in your own feel and of course your own style. All the bestest for the audition on Tuesday keke~ Keep me updated of the results hee~"
I am sorry that i did not realised it till i met up with you again in 2006 and caused a regret within you till the day you passed away. Really felt guilty that you keep mentioning about me to Candy but yet i failed to appear in front of you till the day you passed away.
I will try to do my best for every performance and competitions in future, just for you.
Badly missed.
Shirley aka Xueli
12:23:00 AM
