Sunday, September 07, 2008
Today i just received a message that Nicole Laoshi has passed away.. I was so shocked so i called Nicole Laoshi to double confirm. Then her daughter picked up the call.. She passed away this afternoon, 6 September 2008.
I went down to her wake immediately with Jinxiang. When i 1st saw her in the coffin, it was like i could not believe tats her in it. She lost so much weight... Her neck is so skinny.. Cannot believe that someone who is carrying a bright smile wherever she goes, suddenly stop smiling, suddenly lying there..
She was my 1st vocal teacher, she was the one who taught me what was singing about, what was harmonising about, what was song composition about, why jogging is essential for all singers, how to project my voice and everything..
Remember that when i go to her hse for lesson every week, she will ask if i had my lunch/dinner, will recommend me lotsa of different skincare products, will ask me go jogging with her, will ask me go learn dancing with her and etc...
Everytime lesson end, she will drive me to the train station. She will give me a bottle of chinese medicine which is good for throat. Ask me eat it everyday so that it will protect the throat so that next time even if i keep on singing for few hours, my voice will not change.
Juz now went to her wake, saw all the photos she have taken b4, with artistes, with her daughter, pics of her when she was young, then see her in the coffin, felt so sad juz now that i cried... sigh.. its like, not long ago, i met her at spop event, she ask if i still got keep on singing or not, i told her yup now learning at FM cos wanna learn how to perform, she say next time free and in doubt of anything about singing can always look for her and ask for advices without any charges.. I even thought after learning from FM le, will go back to learn from her.. But now she's gone, there is no way to do so anymore..
Jinxiang even say that when he saw her in the coffin, how he wish she will suddenly open her eyes to look at us again, to talk to us again, to teach us again..
But i am glad that she fulfilled her dream, she released her own EP this year. Finally she gt her own album. The only regret i think she have is that she could not be able to see her daughter to grow up, be a professional singer to fulfil the dream she has for her daughter.
Juz now Carmen was looking at Nicole laoshi with really sad emotions but she tried to stay strong, hold back her tears and told us that her mummy is really very pretty. We went to the tables to sit down for a while, but Carmen say she want to stay there looking at her mummy for a while more, then she asked if we got anything to tell her, we told her we have told Nicole laoshi in our hearts.
Thats wat i told her:" Nicole Laoshi, Thanks so much for teaching me so many stuff, do rest in peace, i believe one day in heaven u will see Carmen singing gracefully and proudly at various countries for you. I will remember in my heart all that u have taught me and will use it correctly using the notes that u have given me, the songs u have given me to learn i will sing it with all the techniques u have taught me, You have been a really great teacher and am happy that u have fulfilled ur dream in releasing ur own album in your life."
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