Friday, July 07, 2006
It's been a long time since i have update my blog.. well.. have been busy working.. singing.. trying to meet the standards of others in terms of performance.. hmm my bf now in camp... only book out on sat night then sun got to book in le.. he seems very moody nowadays.. dunno y.. seems tat he give me cold shoulder nowadays.. everytime he call me the first thing he say :" gt anything to tell me, if not then byebye" sigh felt quite sad to hear tat, i thought he would say something like "i miss u", etc.... but seems tat i dun hear it at all..
last week went to batam with my parents so was not able to meet him.. then yesterday he called me... he sounds very pekchek.. very angry with me cos i could not meet him.. but it was last week incident le.. but to him, it is still as like something tat happen one day b4.. sigh... then he say he dun wan to talk to me, cos he dun feel like talking to me, i felt damn heart-broken by his words.. wat's happening?? have i changed or did anything wrong?? i dun think so.. or he has changed?? sigh.. on wed i went down to tb to practise singing, then he called me so i told him i practising singing, then the next min, he say he wan to sleep then he hung up the call. i tried calling him but he dun wan to pick up.. i asked him yesterday y he did not pick up, he say he does not wan to pick up.. i felt real sad.. how can he say this kind of thing, he does not wan to pick up?? guys in ns usually will miss their gf a lot.. but yet he does not wan to talk to me, does not wan to pick up my calls.. then wat kind of gf am i to him?? or he already find me redundant.. perhaps he juz lost interest in me anymore.. love for me has decreased... sigh.. if thats so i really got nothing to say le.. then perhaps i should leave him if he really dun love me as much le, will not tie him down also.. he wun feel so vexed also ba.. but i still love him lots.. sigh.. dunno wat to do also.. shall wait and see ba..
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