Wednesday, March 15, 2006
juz called my boyfriend to tell him i received my ACCA student card.. but the course is damn ex.. cost me 285pounds which is equivalent to S$855.. sigh.. nowadays education costs is damn high, so wanted to ask if he can lend mi money to pay for it or not.. think my approach not very gd ba.. he very angry cos he say everytime i call him, the 1st thing that came out from my mouth is borrowing money and etc.. sigh.. really sorry abt it.. but i juz spend way too much on my expenses.. then later i began to chat with him, then i started asking him y is it that everytime when he play game, he cannot chat with me.. cos i find that everytime he play game, he will be concentrating on his game so much that he does not wan to chat with me, then if i insist, he will start flaring his temper.. sigh.. so i told him that i really want to chat with him cos its like i only meet him once a week nowadays as i am busy with my stuff.. so i started asking him y he cannot pause his game for a while juz to chat with me.. then he started flaring temper at me on the phone.. he started raising his voice, saying everyday play game is his only time to destress then i called at the wrong timing, so too bad he cannot chat with me.. he say he called mi earlier but i working so juz too bad.. i quite hurt by his words.. y he so mean to me nowdays?? i have been controlling my temper everytime he yell at me or flare his temper at me.. y am i getting this kind of treatment from him..i merely juz wan to chat with him as i miss him so much.. then i told him that seems like game is more impt than mi, then he started flaring his temper.. saying i get on his nerves.. i kept quiet thru out the conversation with him, trying to hold my temper, trying not to flare my temper.. those who know mi for years should know i dun usually hold my temper.. but i dun understand.. despite holding my temper, trying to talk to him without raising my voice, he continued yelling and flaring his temper at me.. y is it so?? y is it so that despite mi holding my temper hoping that he will try to control his temper, he still continue flaring and yelling at me?? he told mi i got on his nerves and he is very dependent on mood. then he continue flaring his temper at me.. i dun think i deserve this kind of treatment from him.. really felt damn hurt, at times i felt like giving it up cos i really cannot stand his temper.. he really hurts me deeply.. then he hang up the call saying he going to PS later, ask if i still got anything to say.. i kept quiet cos i was crying.. then he said :"bye"... thats all he said... wat is happening?? y nowadays he kept flaring temper at me when i never even do so.. he kept saying i get on his nerves.. but y he cannot control his temper.. y he juz have to scold me when he not happy abt it, y must flare at me.. y must yell me.. i really feel very hurt.. really heartbroken...sob sob sob...
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