Thursday, March 31, 2005
Sian.. moodswing liao... jialat... haiz.. waited for my fren to be online but he is not.. haiz.. y am i waiting for him to be online nowadays?? am i over-reacting?? haiz.. he gt his own life too.. even if he say tat he will be back by 8pm and he did not get online till now (11:37pm), i should not be feeling so sian... haiz.. dun like this kind of feeling... i am afraid to fall for him.. afraid to like a person.. haiz.. gt a angel n devil in my mind again.. sian.. haiz...on one side of mi, i know that i cannot fall for a person juz in this manner.. he is juz a guy i know online.. i never meet him before.. how can i have feelings for him... somemore its juz a online thingy.. but the other side of me is telling me i should relax ba.. dun think so much ba.. juz enjoy the online relationship. But, overall, i am very scared to fall for him even if its an online thingy.. gt chat with him today, gt a feeling that he has started to lose some interest in me le.. dunno y.. maybe its my instinct ba.. dunno is it rite or not.. maybe i think too much.. maybe.. maybe.. maybe...
Wendy is not online also.. if not she can give me advice and can cheer me up.. but i cannot always depend on her also ba.. she gt her life too, she need to accompany her bf as well...
Haiz.. maybe i should juz go and rest ba.. when i wake up tml, i will not have this kind of thinking again ba...
3:37:00 PM
